Monday, August 27, 2012

Molly Claire Day 2012

 Today marks the three year anniversary of the delivery of our daughter, Molly Claire Baker, who was born sleeping. When we buried her, I (with the help of my mom) made her a little tiny burial dress. Luckily, I had the presence of mind to make a duplicate for myself. My mom and I finished the whole thing, except hand stitching the lace at the bottom of the dress. It had been sitting in the closet in a box for three years. This year, I decided I could actually finish it, because I really wanted to display it in my house. I got the perfect shadow box this weekend.


 Yesterday, I sat on the couch, and sewed the lace on, before pinning everything in the box. This year, I was ready to do it. I never felt ready before. I think my heart is healed... Not all the way. I don't think it ever will be, but I do feel so much better.


Here it is compared to my other babies blessing outfits.


I was so sad that day. This is a picture of me holding the dress I would clothe her tiny body in on the day we buried her. It was such a sad day.

 This is an excerpt from our family blog about her delivery:

I knew I wanted to blog about this, but thought it would be too hard. I am making myself do it, as it will probably help me heal even more. August 26 was a super busy day. I made yummy pear jam with my cute cousin Shauna all day. My back hurt, I was tired, and after the kids got home from school, they had snacks, homework, and I was frantically trying to clean up, get them ready for that nights activities. Conrad had a soccer game at 5:30, and Sophie had ballet at 6. I had a Dr appointment at 6:30. Things were rushed. The appointment was just the gender confirmation and check-up, as we found out we were having a girl at the 14 week visit, but we were just going to make sure. As soon as I got in the car, I turned the radio on, and felt more calm. I went to the Dr office, and waited until they got me back. When she took me back, and started with the ultrasound, I was telling her how a dear friend of mine had lost her sweet baby boy at 14 weeks, and how sad I was for her. I didn't hear a hear a heart beat, and asked her if there was a heart beat. She said, "No." I didn't believe her at first, and asked that she check again. She did, and confirmed there was no heartbeat. She measured the babies head, and it was small for gestational age. I was in complete shock and started to sob, as she told me she was going to have to, "deliver me," and that I could pick the day and time. She told me she was sorry, gave me a few more details about the delivery for what is known as a, "fetal demise," and left me alone in the cold stark room. I managed to make my way out of the office in a fog of tears. I remember having to stop at the top of the stairs to wipe my eyes, so I could actually see the stairs, and not trip. I kept calling Wayne the whole way out, but couldn't get him to answer. I then called the neighbor, and she got Wayne who was mowing the lawn, and he called me right back. I told him what had happened. He asked me if I was sure, and started to cry when I told him, "yes." I asked him to wait to tell the kids until I got home. He met me in the garage, and hugged me, and cried with me. Then we went into the living room, and called the kids in. They knew from the look on our faces, that things were not good. We told the kids what happened, and Sophie started sobbing for her little sister, uncontrollably. Conrad was sad as well, and drew me a picture. Both kids kept hugging my belly, and kissing my round belly, and saying they love the baby. Sophie just kept saying she just wanted to see Molly, as we told her we had to deliver. We had a miscarriage at 10 weeks in December, and I had a D&C, and the kids were sad they never got to see the baby. We decided to deliver as soon as possible, and the hospital fit us in that night. My mom took the kids, and we headed to the hospital.

When we got there, they gave us a quiet room, that looked just like the room we delivered Conrad in. As I looked around the room, and at the monitors, and the place they lay the newborn baby after it is born, it was so sad, it seemed almost like a dream. They gave me oral labor inducing pills, and an ambien. I thankfully fell asleep a few minutes later. Wayne was not so lucky, and was up with his thoughts, and hospital sounds the bulk of the night. It was so surreal for both of us.

When I awoke the next day, they gave me more pills, and we tearfully awaited the birth of our sweet daughter's tiny body. A few hours later, they gave me an epidural, because in many cases, when you have a stillborn, the placenta does not come out on it's own, and the doc has to do a d&c right there on the spot.

We did not know how long she had been deceased, and the nurses were preparing us for the worst. We didn't know what to expect. We didn't know if she would be deformed, or missing limbs or skin, or if she would even look like a baby. I knew it was about time to deliver, and we patiently waited. There was no anxious excitement this time, no monitors, no heated bed to receive her, just two sweet nurses, me, and Wayne. I felt her slip out of me, not like my other babies deliveries had been, but a sweet delicate surrender from my body to the earth. Wayne was holding my hand. I didn't dare look at her at first, for fear of what I might see. Wayne looked, and when I asked him how she looked, he said, "Beautiful."

I looked at me sweet tiny helpless lifeless baby lying there. There was nothing I could do for her. No way to make it better. I cried sweet tears. I felt lucky to be her mom, and help her on her quest to get a little body, as much as she needed. She was beautiful. She was meant to be my daughter, and I her mother. The veil was thin. I felt peace and comfort. I felt an instant connection with her, the same as I did with my other babies, the minute they were born. My love for her grew tenfold. The nurses cleaned her up, just like they would any other healthy living baby. They put a tiny hat on her tiny head, and wrapped her in soft blankets and gave her a teddy bear. They handed her back to me and Wayne, and we looked at her, and loved her, and cried.
 

After we had held her a while, they told us our options were to have her cremated, or to bury her. The thought of burning my sweet daughter's helpless body gave me a stomach ache. We chose to bury her, and are so glad we did.

My sweet Molly taught me more than I would have ever thought. I am so thankful for every minute she was in my body. Thankful for every second our lives were joined. Wayne and I are thankful for every night she slept between us, every hug she shared with us. She is eternally part of us, and we are lucky that it is so. We love our dear sweet angel daughter. We are blessed to have been able to share even a second with her. We cherish our memories, and our love still grows for her as for our other children.

Here is our only family photo with Molly.


Saying goodbye before closing the casket.


The ride to the cemetery.


When we look back at the whole experience, we still feel lucky we got the time we did with her. This is a family picture from this weekend. We love our little Rhett, and know he would not be a part of our family if Molly had lived. It's funny how things work out.

Wayne has had the whole weekend off, and we have done family activities we think Molly would have liked the whole weekend. We have a full day planned today, including visiting the cemetery. 
She would have been 3.

Have a Happy and Creative Day!
and... HUG YOUR KIDS!

Risa

You can see what we did on Molly Claire Day last year HERE.

Thursday, August 16, 2012

Back-to-School Party segment and links!

I love back to school parties, and shared a few of the parties I have hosted in the past on Studio 5 yesterday. Here's the clip.


Again, I have to say, I LOVE Studio 5! Are you getting tired of me saying this? I love everyone, my producer, the camera men, the fabulous hosts - Brooke and Darin are fantastic, and super talented! I also love the other contributors I see and/or meet when I go. I feel so lucky! 

Thank you Studio 5 for allowing me to visit the set, and share my stuff!


Here are links to the back-to-school parties I hosted last year.


And, a little teaser of what I am doing this year...


The theme for both kids parties this year is 
Back-to-School BOOT CAMP
Be sure and check back for party details - coming soon!

Have a Happy and Creative Day!

Risa

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

IKAT Rug Segment and promo from Warehouse Fabrics Inc.

If you didn't get a chance to watch my live rug segment on Studio 5 today, here it is:


The awesome people at Warehouse Fabrics Inc. have given a promo code to Studio 5 viewers, to enter "STUDIO5" at checkout and receive a 5% discount on one order now through the end of the year 12.31.12! Aren't they the best!?! Now you have no excuse not to make a rug (or anything else). Please check them out at www.warehousefabricsinc.com.

For my DIY rug tutorial, please click HERE.

Have a Happy and Creative Day!

Risa

Saturday, August 11, 2012

DIY IKAT rug!

Would you believe me if I told you I made the rug in the picture, and it only took about two hours? I am in LOVE! It is my new favorite thing.

I love it from every angle!
 I feel like it pulls the whole room together!


 I have been wanting a rug for my formal living room for quite a while now, and have been crazy about the ikat (pronounced, ee-kot) pattern. These rugs are all over the place, but have a very lofty price tag.

This Martha Stewart rug from gluefier is $468.

Ikat rugs in Pottery Barn start at $999.

The way I feel about it is; Ikat is very trendy and I love it now, but don't want to make an investment in something that I may not be crazy about two years down the road. I saw a tutorial online about how to make a rug, using fabric, so I thought I would give it a try. The tutorial can be found here.

You will need:

Upholstery Weight Fabric

I got mine at
warehousefabricsinc.com 
They have so many lovely fabrics to choose from, and have a terrific selection of ikat's (if you are a little obsessed, like I am). I highly recommend them for any project you have in mind, that involves fabric!

This is what I chose:

It's called Iskander Lime, and it is fabulous! I ordered 2 yards, equaling $32. Make sure you get at least a medium weight upholstery fabric. I was also sure to use a fabric with a large repeat. This will give your rug a more high end feel.

You will also need three products from
 Home Depot
(I like the Centerville, UT store. They are so friendly and helpful!):

Painter's Drop Cloth $10.98
5ft x 8ft Rug Gripper $22.97

Spray Adhesive $5.77

So, the whole thing costs around $72. I used thread I already had to sew the edges, but you may need to factor the cost of thread in there as well.

Let's get started on the tutorial!

The first thing you need to do is iron. I spent nearly an hour on this part! You will want the fabric to be as smooth as it can be. I left it on my railing while I prepped everything.

Lay the rug gripper out on a flat clean surface.
Lay the painter's canvas on top of the gripper.
Lay the fabric on top of the canvas. I laid mine so the salvage edge barely hung over the canvas, so that I could turn and sew it to finish the edges.
It should look like this.
Cut the excess around the fabric.
Two of the sides will look like this.
You will need to fold the fabric in half, and cut the base in enough that the  edges of the upholstery fabric will wrap nicely around the base when it's time to sew the edges to finish the project.
 Now it's time to start spraying the adhesive on. Fold your fabric in half, and start spraying a 6 inch section near the folded edge. Spray on the canvas. Don't spray too much. Use your hand to smooth out the fabric layers.
 Work your way down, constantly smoothing from the center to the outer edges.


 After you have finished the first layer, you can do the same for the next layer, but spray on the canvas instead of the gripper. My gripper moved a bit with the smoothing, and probably because of the slant of my driveway.
 Next, you get to turn the edges. The tutorial I read before recommended pinning, but I didn't actually need to, because of the spray adhesive making it stick on it's own!
 I had a hard time figuring out how to sew the edges, because of the scale and weight of the rug. I ended up rolling the rug, and setting the rolled end on the chairs next to me, and in my lap. I am not going to lie. It was hard to push it through the machine, because of the gripper. I did break one needle on a corner.
 Next time, I would sew it with the fabric against the table instead of the gripper, because it runs much more smoothly through the machine. I sewed an extra line of stitching around the edge.
I wouldn't recommend this rug for high pile carpets. I think it would do best on hard floors, like wood, tile or laminate, and it works well for low pile carpet.

Now for the fun part!!!

Here's how it looks in my house!!! What do you think?


 I love how it goes with my chairs!!!
I love everything about it!!!
It makes the whole room!

See that lamp? I am going to tell you all about it soon!  Also, I will be sharing this on Studio 5 on Wednesday. Tune in for a live demo. Our fabulous friends at Warehouse Fabrics Inc.  have a special for Studio 5 viewers that I will tell you about on air. You won't want to miss it!

Be sure and come back!

Have a Happy and Creative Day!

Risa

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